Devious Journal Entry

I just read the beginning of my friend's novel and it's pretty amazing. It was err, quite inspirational, I added to what I had started of mine.

I made my character profile for G.E.D Productions, finally! [I am sincerely sorry for the huge delay in completing it Roy!roy-swordsman.deviantart.com/] I do look forward to trying to fit my character into the plot/storyline that has been worked up so far.

This week has been pretty tiring. Don't you sometimes find it strange how people enter and leave your life in such a hurry you wonder why they were even there? But it's difficult when they leave a mark which you try your hardest to remove or at least cover up but you can't. And out of coincidence they enter again, for such a short moment and then you suddenely, almost moments after, come across a stranger. Do you ever wonder whether this stranger has been sent to keep your mind off of all the confusion caused before? Ahh it makes my head heart just thinking about it.

I'm kind of worried. Our university applications are being sent off really soon, and it seems as though we have to make life changing decisions way too early in life. Hell I'm only 17! I mean, I can make the decision, it was pretty easy for me. It's just the fact that, when you plan, you expect, and when you expect, things are more likely to happen. Well at least in your head. But when things don't go to plan. When things go wrong and turn out pretty badly. You're left in despair. You're stuck in the bubble of hope you blew yourself. And you can't go anywhere else. I guess I should summon up alternatives in case anything bad happens or I get any unpleasant suprises. Ahh. "Failing to prepare is preparing to fail".

I know this is totally random but I kept reminscing, well that's not the best word to use but I was thinking of how different things used to be and it was so weird. In my head, it seems like it was a completely different life. As though everything has changed. The seasons changed, time changed, the people changed but I know I havn't. I will always stick to the realisation I had made a few years ago in which people can never change, as much as they themselves and you may want them to, inside they're still the same person. I need more change. I wait for change. And if change doesn't arrive on my doorstep then I will seek for it.

I hope change doesn't bite me in the butt.